Today I received some hard news.
My dad (who was diagnosed with cancer in October) went in for his second surgery
to remove tumors under his collarbone and on his neck.
The doctors were not successful.
The tumor is larger than expected and embedded in a major artery.
They will not attempt another surgery.
Radiation and chemo are not viable options.
Reality is setting in,
my Dad will not be around forever.
I wonder how long he'll get to enjoy his new granddaughter.
I wonder if he'll be here for Sam or Ava's next birthdays.
I wonder if he'll enjoy another Christmas with the family.
So many thoughts are swirling through my head.
So many questions that there are no answers to.
But one thing I do know.
My Jesus is in control.
He is my Comfort and Peace,
the Arms That Will Carry Me,
my Assurance and Hope.
So in this moment
I will look to Him and take refuge in His strength.
Tomorrow (or the next hour) has it's own troubles.
But right now I will choose to rest in the soothing embrace of my Savior.